I wanna hold you!!

What this really means is, he wants you to hold him, but I love the way he's asks. Sometimes I pretend to lean towards him and say "Ok lil honey you can hold me", and then he says noooo I wanna hold you!!!! Its' so cute, and I love him more than anything in life--more than he will be able to comprehend.

Everyone else did it...

It's funny how carson blames his little injuries on other kids who are not even around at the time it happens. I cant help but laugh. He even blames it on Papa Wally or in Carsons' pronounciation its Papa Waddey. I just fall over laughing, and then he tells me "No funny momma", and then I really cant stop laughing. He would say that all the time, I haven't heard him say that in few months, but it's hysterical.

ThanksGiving/Christmas 2010/ Just the TWO of us

These were tougher Holidays for all of us! It was hard to be happy and in a great mood, cause we all had 1 person on our minds. Mikey!!! We sure missed him at the festivities. We missed him so much more than ever at the dinner table at grandmas. Infact I dont think anyone even spoke a single word-it was so quiet. The only sound was the occassional scraping of the dinner plates or shuffling back and forth to the kitchen for 2nds. The food was definitely a hit! But it was hard to celebrate when we had just lost a brother, uncle, friend, son, and FATHER to Carson. Some say it gets easier in time, and I believe that, but for now before the easy part, is all the challenges we face, and the trying times. For Christmas, carson was spoiled as he usually is. I didnt' really get any pictures these holidays cause I wasnt in the mood I suppose.

CARSON TURNS 2----a second time??

I guess I already did a post on his 2nd, it was a lot of fun to plan and celebrate w/ our family and friends. Great food, carson got spoiled in presents as well, I got some pictures, not as much as I wanted, and I always say I am going to play photographer, but who am I kidding, I've got a party for a sweet lil handsome love to throw for. This next year for his 3rd birthday will be a little bit tougher for us, because we will be missing someone. Carson's daddy. We know that he is in spirit and in our hearts, but its hard to think that even tho he's not in the flesh, that he's not there. So Carson's 2nd birthday was the last birthday carson had w/ his daddy. I think I got one really good picture of them two together--maybe. I sure hope so. I feel awful that were already lacking family pictures together, and all these great ones of JUST CARSON by HIMSELF. So from now on, I am going to get annual pictures of the "2" of us, and make sure to get plenty of us two in between.


I hope that we will have a lot of friends and family at his 3rd birthday as we will all be missing that 1 important special person, and its going to be hard to do it on our own from now on---but we have a great support system and were never alone. Just look to the sky, he will be there! I thought I had done a post about the passing of Mike, I swear up and down that I did. He passed on 11/6/10, from a seizure, and he was in his home.

WERE BACK!!

We were never gone, but seems that way from this blog. I haven't done any updates in months. I was much better at keeping it all up to date when I was staying at home with carson FT. I would like to at least add a post once a week. I feel like Carson is just growing up way to fast before my eyes, I need to keep up w/ him. It's sad, cause I want to be able post on the day or Near the day that it actually happens so that the Date Stamp is correct. I have kept a list pretty close by to jot down titles of what each post would be about, and looking back I cant remember what each one was about so I will do my best, and being that my internet has been not avail since that first big snow storm in DEC makes it harder to access to update. It says my last post is October 2010. I thought I had posted after that. Well we will begin w/ Carsons 2nd birthday that occured on 10/15/11, and the MOST SPECIAL ONE, and that reason will be explained.

Poopy bath...10/30/10

First.time.Carson.pooped.in.the.bath.
THE END

2 year CheckUP!!!!

So carson had his 2 yr regular chkup /w his pediatrician Dr Papiez....it was pretty short and sweet..it wasnt that short...we were there for a couple hours. HAHA!!!! Carson is doing just fine, health & developmental wise. He'g, and he's long. I dont remember what the measurements were. I want to say 36'' long and maybe 32 lbs...I swear he's heavier than that.

He had 3 shots. 2 in the thigh and then a flut shot mist that they sprayed up in his lil nostrils. That was very quick, then the two in his thigh..i feel terrible, he kept looking at me holding his thigh and saying owie, owie...porry baby...

I took a few pictures on my phone of him sitting on the table waiting for the doctor to come in. He doesnt have another appt til 3 and I think no more shots till he's 4...I think..hopefully by 3 he will be fully potty trained and saying all sorts words....